Chicago!
I'm actually surprised that my blog is still here. After all, it has been two years since I've blogged about anything or even checked the site. So I guess a bit of a catching up session is in order. I'm now living in Chicago. It's an incredible city and even though I've only been here a year, my past lives in different cities seem distant. Kyle started his residency here (hence the move to Chicago) and he's about to finish his first year as a real, actual doctor! He's turning into a great doctor and he's worked incredibly hard to get through this first year.
And I'm leaving him. When I agreed to move here with him (in lieu of a proposal) I told him he had a year to figure out what he wants for us and well, he still has no idea. So, after almost 5 years together he doesn't know if he wants to propose and I'm tired of hoping he will. I've found a new place to live and I move out at the end of the month. You may be wondering how I can admit this and, at least on the surface, not seem too upset? Hmmm, well, I was upset....I still am upset. I was upset when he said he was going to propose before match day over a year ago and then decided he wasn't ready. I was upset over the next year when time was ticking by and he still hadn't proposed.....I'm upset because I've known all along that he is the guy I wanted to marry. And now I'm upset that I'm making the difficult choice to leave him when all I want to do is stay.
So there is my dirty laundry---I'm airing it out. I'm starting over at 32 and I'm scared and unsure of what the future is going to bring, but I have a fabulous family and friends and a great dog. A great dog unless there is another dog within 50 feet of us and then he's a barking terror on a leash. A behavioralist/trainer is coming on Monday....
I'll be back with more updates soon. But now it's time to turn on some music and start packing......
